I wrote about this on my other blog. Let me copy it here.
By the way, pardon my grammar and grammar nazi's you have no room here! I write whatever my mind is telling me and I don't care what you think. lol
17 May 2015
Nightmare in broad daylight
I know. I only remember updating this blog when I’m feeling sad or down or blue. Yes, the negative of things. But this is exactly what this blog is for and it’s therapeutic for me. So to those who are up to anything happy and light - do yourself a favor by unfollowing me as this blog is the exact opposite.
Alright. I still have my usual struggle with work and life but there’s a new addition to the challenge - my little precious Zeddy. I noticed lately that he’s behind in his developmental milestones and been asking a lot of people about it and was told that kids develop in different rates etc etc. But there’s just something I notice that’s different. Mother’s instinct they call it. So I insisted to have him checked by a Child Dev Psych and was told that though they can’t make diagnosis for now but my little previous Zeddy inhibits ASD symptoms.
So what are the negative and positive signs? Let me list it down here so I can look back and probably help someone in the future who happens to be in the same dilemma as me. POSITIVES: Plays peek-a-boo. Give you the remote when he want to watch TV. Says “mamam” when he wants to eat or drink. Ask for help by giving you the thing/toy when he can’t do it his own (i.e opening the snack container). Babbles. Pretend to read book by turning pages and babbling. Can point to fruits and numbers in chart. Turns head when we say “Mummy’s coming!”. Smiles when he see’s me sometimes. NEGATIVES: Prefers to watch TV a lot. Cries when TV is turned off. Very little eye contact. Does not wave byebye. Use to do it when younger but lost it. Does not respond to his name. Not talking a single word at 21mos. Likes turning wheels and watching fan turning. Like’s to turn toys instead of playing them as they are. Tiptoes when walking at times. Does not play with other kids. Does not pretend play. Cannot follow instructions.
That my friends, is what’s keeping me up each night. It’s not that I can’t accept the possibility, it’s because I’m given a blurred answer to the ultimate question that left me hanging and deciphering what exactly is going on with my son. Is he just delayed? Or there’re really something wrong?
When i see some positive signs that he’s not, it elates and calm my nerves somehow. But when night comes and I recall what we did that day, those wandering eyes of him not looking at me when I talk and those selective hearing that doesn’t listen when I call - drives me insane literally. I love my Zeddy more than anything. That’s why It breaks my heart thinking of the possibilities. It’s hard you know.
We are doing what’s best. We have sign up for Occupational Therapy and Early Intervention and put him in playgroup. It’s gonna cost us a bomb but I dont care. We’ll update you later on the outcome. Our next appointment will be in 9 months time. Keep you guys posted.
By the way, pardon my grammar and grammar nazi's you have no room here! I write whatever my mind is telling me and I don't care what you think. lol
17 May 2015
Nightmare in broad daylight
I know. I only remember updating this blog when I’m feeling sad or down or blue. Yes, the negative of things. But this is exactly what this blog is for and it’s therapeutic for me. So to those who are up to anything happy and light - do yourself a favor by unfollowing me as this blog is the exact opposite.
Alright. I still have my usual struggle with work and life but there’s a new addition to the challenge - my little precious Zeddy. I noticed lately that he’s behind in his developmental milestones and been asking a lot of people about it and was told that kids develop in different rates etc etc. But there’s just something I notice that’s different. Mother’s instinct they call it. So I insisted to have him checked by a Child Dev Psych and was told that though they can’t make diagnosis for now but my little previous Zeddy inhibits ASD symptoms.
So what are the negative and positive signs? Let me list it down here so I can look back and probably help someone in the future who happens to be in the same dilemma as me. POSITIVES: Plays peek-a-boo. Give you the remote when he want to watch TV. Says “mamam” when he wants to eat or drink. Ask for help by giving you the thing/toy when he can’t do it his own (i.e opening the snack container). Babbles. Pretend to read book by turning pages and babbling. Can point to fruits and numbers in chart. Turns head when we say “Mummy’s coming!”. Smiles when he see’s me sometimes. NEGATIVES: Prefers to watch TV a lot. Cries when TV is turned off. Very little eye contact. Does not wave byebye. Use to do it when younger but lost it. Does not respond to his name. Not talking a single word at 21mos. Likes turning wheels and watching fan turning. Like’s to turn toys instead of playing them as they are. Tiptoes when walking at times. Does not play with other kids. Does not pretend play. Cannot follow instructions.
That my friends, is what’s keeping me up each night. It’s not that I can’t accept the possibility, it’s because I’m given a blurred answer to the ultimate question that left me hanging and deciphering what exactly is going on with my son. Is he just delayed? Or there’re really something wrong?
When i see some positive signs that he’s not, it elates and calm my nerves somehow. But when night comes and I recall what we did that day, those wandering eyes of him not looking at me when I talk and those selective hearing that doesn’t listen when I call - drives me insane literally. I love my Zeddy more than anything. That’s why It breaks my heart thinking of the possibilities. It’s hard you know.
We are doing what’s best. We have sign up for Occupational Therapy and Early Intervention and put him in playgroup. It’s gonna cost us a bomb but I dont care. We’ll update you later on the outcome. Our next appointment will be in 9 months time. Keep you guys posted.
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